beautiful mind(s)

I told my doctor about the rape, about being scared, about not sleeping. We talked for a while. He encouraged me to tell my family. He agreed that it’s hard because there might be anger from them for not letting them in, but that ultimately it might be helpful. I don’t know if I ever will do that. He raised my dose of Sertraline and prescribed me Ambien for sleep. He says he wants me to continue seeing my therapist (which I had planned on) and if he doesn’t see a change in about a month he will have me see a psychiatrist and get on new meds that will specifically treat my PTSD. So anxious, so nervous, so relieved.

Unexpectedly became so anxious for my appointment this morning. I feel so sick about it

"You’ll be fine. You’re 25. Feeling [unsure] and lost is part of your path. Don’t avoid it. See what those feelings are showing you and use it. Take a breath. You’ll be okay. Even if you don’t feel okay all the time."

Louis C.K. (via circuit)

(Source: observando, via fourbet)

ghcst:

im so miserable but i laugh at everything

(via breathe-without-me)

Anonymous asked:
It's okay if you don't want to answer this, I don't want to be intrusive, but I haven't been around for a while...when did you find out about the leukemia?

I found out awhile ago, just haven’t talked about it much!